Happy birthday America!
So my father passed away today from a stroke. The father that I haven’t had a relationship with for several years. I’m feeling a lot of regret. A little over a year and half ago I had the chance to see him while in Cambodia. I choose not too because of my selfishness. I didn’t want to see him with another wife, or child. I couldn’t and didn’t want to see that he could be happy without me and my siblings. No words can express the regret I feel right now. I didn’t even get to say goodbye and most importantly that I loved him. Granted he was never a good father figure. But that doesn’t mean I didn’t love my father. I always wanted to have a relationship with him, no matter what he did in the past. He’s still a part of me. With everything going on, I wouldn’t be able to go to Cambodia to participate in the funeral. And nothing hurts me more.
Never give up the chance to tell loved ones how you feel about them. But in this world you never know what’s going to happen tomorrow. Tell them everyday. I love you Travis John, I take you for granted and that will end as of today. I cherish you so much. I wish we weren’t arguing so much. I wish we were in a better place. I guess I’m going to have to sacrifice more to make us work. I will do anything for you.
Always & Forever ❤️